i should not be ordering funeral flowers for a 4 yr old.

turns out i can't go to the funeral today. the airline wanted to be a loser about changing my flight. they were completely unhelpful which is really frustrating. and i feel like such a loser because here i am going on vacation but i can't go to my only nephew's funeral. i just wish i could be there with my brother.

so one more day til florida. i'm really looking forward to getting away. oddly enough, i plan on getting a lot done- reading, creating, photographing, and soul searching but hopefully it will be productive. God's really been doing something in me, through a lot of people and books and i'm looking forward to (hopefully) some time to really think.