fall is a funny time of year for me and i seem to get very restless. maybe it's because i'm so used to having things "change" during this time of year. for seventeen years, school has started in september. i got married, honeymooned, and moved in september. i tend to travel out of country september/october. i've changed jobs twice in october.
but now in my "stable" life-- home, job, life-- you'd think i'd finally settle and relax. instead i get very antsy. i have a huge list of things to do and projects to complete in the near future (like read books that never seem to come off my "to read" list, finish that stained glass project, paint the stairway, finish the baseboards, work on some christmas and baby gifts, throw a baby shower or two, organize photos and put some albums together, put my recipes in some kind of order, get my side job up and running, get my sewing machine fixed, and... oh yeah... finish my photography certificate-- just to name a few of the actually fun ones!) but even when i'm accomplishing something, my mind is constantly jumping and i can't seem to settle.
this week, i start going through "the purpose driven life" (again, apparently i didn't get it the first time!) and God seems to be telling me a few things re: my "purpose":
- that i'm not as clueless as i pretend to be, He's given me so many resources (the Bible, prayer, life experiences, etc.) that will show me the way if i'd only pay attention
- that i have to dig for the good stuff (diamonds need to be mined, pearls are hidden in oysters, etc.)
- i need to give him my open hand as opposed to a closed fist. yes, God can take anything from an open hand, but He can also give.
